I never post in communities –ever, I pretty much read everyone else’s and keep to myself. But lately I’m home alone 6 out of 7 days a week and the isolation is deafening. I have ADHD, Server Anxiety, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Server Depression; I’m a recovered anorexic and have recently been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I feel so alone in my own thoughts. I can’t seem to even pluck up the courage to make friends online. So here I am putting all my fears aside in the hope of connecting with someone, anyone. I am currently on 125mg Efexor (am) and 25mg Seroquel (pm) and am about to get psychiatric assessment at a clinic in the city, where I’ll either stay in the resident for a few weeks then start the day programs or just start the day programs there.
Besides all the bad stuff going on, I am getting married to be best friend, soul mate and sole carer in just over 4 months. I’m hoping by then the scars will fad and I will have more control. I want to be able to truly show my happiness and not let my demons ruin my one perfect day. I live at with my fiancé and our two cats, and am pretty much a closet nerd. I don’t really have any hobbies but had certain obsessions that come and go in waves.
I’m hoping this post and x-posted will get me out there and prove to myself that rejection is not the only opinion. That I can have friendships, meaningful and fulfilling relationships. And maybe, just maybe there is someone else out there just like me. Thanks and feel free to add me (with a small comment about yourself :))